Thursday Recap (2)

Friday 11th was the last day of dress up week at Riley’s Daycare so I sent him dressed up as a Raccoon again 🙂 Soooo Cute!!! And I went and had my eyes tested, nothing eventful happened there.image

Saturday’s are housework day, so when that was done we went to a friend’s house for a BBQ dinner, where Riley had fun playing with another little boy, it was great they ran around and wore each other out.

Sunday is my funday! I pretty much stuffed around all day, drew some stickmen, played with riley, read a book and then watched Masterchef.

It’s just another Manic Monday; Worked, did some stickman drawing and then watched Masterchef.

The dreaded Tuesday, my first day back at TAFE in eight years. I was freaking out, over whelmed, and most of all missing time with my little man.

Wednesday – hump day – half way there day; Worked, did some stickman drawing and then watched Masterchef.

Then we come to today Thursday 17th, Yay! Riley’s swimming lesson day. We used to go to swimming on Tuesdays but as I am back working Tuesdays swimming had to be moved, hence we had a new teacher, new place in the pool and new classmates. Riley really did not cope with so many changes all at once. Normally Riley loves his swimming lessons, but today he was very clingy and even had a cry – poor bubba, but he will get used to the changes.

I’ve got TAFE again tonight – I also need to get used to the changes 😐

Martha : Friday Fictioneers 100 word story challenge

Martha stared up at the sky with hungry eyes. She had never in all her eighty three years seen a drought so bad.

Dark clouds started to roll in and cover the painfully bright sky. It was as if the gods had finally answered her prayers.

The healing rain flowed down revitalising Martha and filling her with such joy that she lifted up her petticoat and began to prance around in the street like a woman of much less years.

The rain purged the burnt land as it refilled the reservoirs and the townsfolk’s hearts, giving them the strength to start again.

PHOTO PROMPT – Copyright – Kelly Sands

PHOTO PROMPT – Copyright – Kelly Sands

And then some other stuff happened (Thursday Recap 1)

So I’m connecting – I’m Facebooking, Tweeting, Goodreading and even getting all up in those Google+ Circles (see connect with me page for links to all my social media sites) and as most of you probably know already I recently added YouTube and Instagram to all that *ME* in the and on the World Wide Web.

Yeaaaaah and when was the last time I got to do a decent post on my BLOG Ummmmm Damn You Social Media for taking up all my time!!

I’ve forgotten my point – Damn short attention span.

Oh yeah that’s my POINT!

I spend too much time “connecting” I haven’t written much in months.

But anyways at least i’ve found some sort of direction for my YouTube channel – yeah thats kind of worth it – Each Thursday I’m going to attempt to do a “diary type” 60 second (or there abouts) video recap of my week and on the first Sunday of each month I’m going to record one of my Poems. YAYYYYYY!!!!!

So here is my first Thursday Ramble, it’s rather rough as i just slapped it all together to see if it’s something i could work with in the future 🙂 enjoy :-).

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Luv from Dog by Murray Ball

 

Romances come and go. But when a man suffers the scorn of a scented seductress, the pain of parting, the ache of a lonely heart, when he’s bursting with shame, humiliation and jealousy, where can he turn? To his best friend, of course: his dog.

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‘Luv from Dog’ is a selection of Murray Ball’s 1975 – 1990 Footrot Flats cartoon strips and standalone images all dealing with love and lust. It is a light and humours read that I really enjoyed. You cannot help but fall in love with “Dog” and wish him success in chasing away that She Devil Cheeky Hobson.dog heart

There is not much more I can say really – 5 out of 5 stars for an iconic comic and the Man, Mr Bell behind the DOG.go on

Longbourn by Jo Baker

FYI: I lost two bookmarks while trying to read this book, one my son chewed into pieces and the second he hid god knows where!

 

Longbourn by Jo Baker Goodreads Synopsis:

• Pride and Prejudice was only half the story •

If Elizabeth Bennet had the washing of her own petticoats, Sarah often thought, she’d most likely be a sight more careful with them.

In this irresistibly imagined below stairs answer to Pride and Prejudice, the servants take center stage. Sarah, the orphaned housemaid, spends her days scrubbing the laundry, polishing the floors, and emptying the chamber pots for the Bennet household. But there is just as much romance, heartbreak, and intrigue downstairs at Longbourn as there is upstairs. When a mysterious new footman arrives, the orderly realm of the servants’ hall threatens to be completely, perhaps irrevocably, upended.

Jo Baker dares to take us beyond the drawing rooms of Jane Austen’s classic—into the often overlooked domain of the stern housekeeper and the starry-eyed kitchen maid, into the gritty daily particulars faced by the lower classes in Regency England during the Napoleonic Wars—and, in doing so, creates a vivid, fascinating, fully realized world that is wholly her own.

My Thoughts:

I loved the line “If Elizabeth Bennet had the washing of her own petticoats, Sarah often thought, she’d most likely be a sight more careful with them”.

I loved Mrs Hill, Sarah and Polly and Felt for them. The twist concerning James’s parentage did not sit right with me and just felt wrong. However, ignoring that I was able to enjoy the story and Bar Mr Bennet, I was happy with Bakers take on the characters and they felt Austen approvable to me.

I really enjoyed reading the servants take on the Bennet’s and their dramas. I found it interesting, I had never really thought about who washed and cooked and the entire goings on in the background of Pride and Prejudice as I was always too caught up with Mr Darcy.

The love story: Sarah an orphan taken and raised my Mrs Hill as a housemaid at Longbourn and who gets worked ragged and ends up understandably fed up with her life. James comes along and gets himself a job as footmen and that is when things start to get interesting. Like I said before if you ignore the premises of James parentage his back-story as a on the run disgraced solder is fascinating.

Even though Sarah and James end up together and happy, I felt like the ending was not good enough. All the characters get happy-ish endings; I just felt that James and Sarah deserved more. I mean hell if you are going to go all out and say Mr Bennet had a Love child with his housekeeper Mrs Hill at least have him come clean about it in the end, as then James not Mr Collins would inherit the Longbourn estate and Sarah and James could live happily ever after, safe and sound!

I rated it 3 out of 5 stars,  because this Mr Bennet was not the Mr Bennet that I know and love.

Mary: Friday Fictioneers 100 word story challenge

Mary could feel the tears prickling at the corner of her eyes.

Her once magnificent family home was in ruins.

As she gingerly walked through what was left of the house it was evident by the smell that there had been squatters living there at some stage.

After her father’s bankruptcy years before, Mary had vowed that she would one day get her Family’s heritage back.

After twenty years she now had just managed to reacquire the once grand property.

Mary was determined; that what this place once was with her tender love and care it would be again.

 

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My First Ever YouTube Video

The greatest prison people live in is the fear of what other people think.

With that in mind, I am going to suck it up and just post this video!

Arms Around Me

I want to run and hide
Down deep inside
How happy I would be
You no longer poisoning my mind
Please set my soul free
I’d no longer need to lie
Without your arms around me
But I’m frozen in pain
Shame won’t let me leave
The failure I’ve become
Is unbecoming to me
You no longer by my side
I’d set my soul free
But with you till I die
I told you I would be
So here still I lie
With your arms around me
I feel the need to cry
But the tears won’t leave me
While you wallow in sorrow and self-pity
Why don’t you just leave me?
All the past tears we’ve cried
With your arms around me
I’m trying to figure out why
And if I should leave
But with you till I die
I told you I would be
So here still I lie
With your arms around me

Scoda: Friday Fictioneers 100 word story challenge

I looked out the window of the surgery in which I worked and saw him down by the docks again.

I wondered where his owner was or if he was owned at all.

I walked down and fed him half of my lunch, something I’d been doing for weeks.

This day the shaggy little mess was particularly forlorn, so I decided to take him to the pound.

He was never claimed and he officially became mine.

I cleaned him up and named him Scoda.

He then spent the rest of his days loved, happy, healthy and with his tummy full.

 

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Fed up with myself!

Lately I have felt like bursting into tears for no reason. I am exhausted and racked with anxiety but cannot figure out exactly why.

I hate feeling like this. It just sneaks up from nowhere. I can have been having a couple of really good days or even weeks. I start to think I’m finally get on top of things and then bam I’m knocked over by this darkness that just makes me feel useless.

For the last month, I have had the plan to start a YouTube channel where I would record my Poems and some shorter observation Just A Thought /Random Rants type posts as it’s easier to get someone to watch a short video link then read a link to a FB Note or Blog Post. I would also share the link to the video on my Social Media and Blog for the people who do read me already. So I have attempted to do my first video post multiple times and I’m always finding something wrong and deleting it rather than uploading it.

The sort of things I say to myself in my head as I am watching the videos back: You’re a retard. Fuck you look fat. You sound like an idiot. You stumbled over that word. It sounds shit. What the fuck are you doing? Why the fuck did you do that. You ruined it. God that wok eye is ugly.

Truth is most of the attempts I have deleted because the camera angle gave me a double chin or while I was talking my eye turned out and made me look disgusting.

One of my eyes turns out and I hate it. I delete so many selfies with my son, even though he looks totally cute, because my stupid ugly eye goes off on its own adventure without the rest of me. I’m left eye dominate, so my right eye wanders – but my right eye, that my brain chooses not to use has the better vision LOL good work there Brain!!!

Anyway I totally went off topic didn’t EYE 😛 Really it’s ok, I’m alive and I can see and that is the main thing!!! Nevertheless, when I am down in the dumps all the little things like that really get at me.

Anyway, I am going to attempt to get over this and move on with my plans for the channel, hopefully!

Also for the last couple of weeks, I have been trying to format my second poetry eBooks for publication. I managed to do my first one, but kept stuffing up the second. It shattered me. In the end, I gave in and paid someone to do it for me. I failed and I HATE that. I am so mad at my stupid ass self for not being able to do it. I really think this is what brought on my current funk. I have gotten the formatted files back and have uploaded them and now have two published poetry works, but failing at the formatting has made it a bitter win. I had to give up. I got so upset I almost chucked in the towel completely. I SHOULD have been able to do it.

But I feel I have dealt with the issues / problems I stated above and I still feel at unease. I still feel blue. Down. Low. Unfocused. The Harry Potter marathon and all popcorn in my cupboard hasn’t helped. Snuggles with my Son hasn’t helped. I’m just so fed up with myself.

Cold, rain and depressed laziness has stopped me from going out lately, but I’m determined to go for a walk tomorrow morning rain or not, as I need to get some happy hormones flowing or something.

Thanks for taking the time to listen (or rather read) to me whinge 🙂 it is much appreciated!

Link for my YouTube Channel: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxbj_XQuDb1VclqWh98g8cg/about

My Latest eBook The World Around Me; is a collection of poems in my randomly raw & unpolished poetry style about the things I See & Feel as I navigate this crazy thing called Life.

So grab a cuppa and take a look into my heart and mind if you dare >>

https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/443439